Sarah

skelby @ 7:27pm: Details ...
Okay.

So details about what happened ...

It all started back in 2007, December to be exact. The day we found out we were pregnant. Thats when I started to notice a difference in Glenn. But I shrugged it off, like any other girl would do. So time went on, and things got better. But, like they always did, things just got worse. Ignoring the problem only made it worse.

The day Hudson came home, there was huge tension in our house. Glenn's attitude towards me had done a complete 180. But, my priority was Hudson. I know now that I should have payed more attention to my failing relationship, but I was a new mom. Jan 2009 was the start of the end. Sleeping in different beds, arguing, not talking, just trying to avoid each other as much as possible.

So, after 9 months of being ignored and walked on I decided it was time to let this end. But, like the stupid girl I am, when he said that everything was fine and that it was all in my head, I believed him.

Finally, October 3, 2009. Glenn tells me that he isn't in love with me anymore and that I have to get out. I begged and pleaded for some stupid reason. Thinking that maybe, just maybe, this time we could work it out.

I'm glad we didn't.

Thinking about it now, I knew it was coming. I was just denying it. The last 3 months of our 'relationship' we both drifted apart. Not just Glenn. Since the beginning of 2009, I could feel the difference in the way I was towards him aswell. It happens. People fall in and out of love everyday.

I wasn't in love with Glenn anymore either, and I wasn't for a long time. I realize now, that I wasn't in love with him at all. The only reason I was with him, was because I felt safe, and I needed him. And thats not love at all.

But I'm happy now.

I have Hudson (who is the spitting image of his mother, BTW). He will love me more and longer than any man will. I've moved on. There's tons of single moms who make it on their own. Who says I can't be one of them? I'm a strong, independant woman and I will prove to him that he's wrong. I can do this on my own. I will make it.

When your forced to stand alone, you realize what you really have in you. I truly believe it.

I'm trying to be the bigger person through this whole crap show, but he's making it hard. I've never said one bad thing about him. And I won't. My mama taught me better than that. We're not in high school anymore, and he needs to be a grown adult about this situation. Saying shit about me to my friends isn't going to help. And the email from Glenn with the XXX pictures of him and his girlfriend, definatly was not cool.

I know our feelings towards each other are non existant, but there is a child involved. We need to set apart our differences and be parents. Above everything, we are parents. Although, it's hard when he's only seen Hudson once since we've been apart. That's his choice. He doesn't want to spend time with his son, then fine. Just don't bitch to me when Hudson freaks out because he doesn't know you.

I figure thats enough whining for one day. I hope I've helped clear up some questions that I know people have had.


ONE DAY AT A TIME ...


I'm trying to be the bigger person through this whole crap show, but he's making it hard. I've never said one bad thing about him. And I won't. My mama taught me better than that. We're not in high school anymore, and he needs to be a grown adult about this situation. Saying shit about me to my friends isn't going to help. And the email from Glenn with the XXX pictures of him and his girlfriend, definatly was not apro-po.

I know our feelings towards each other are non existant, but there is a child involved. We need to set apart our differences and be parents. Above everything, we are parents. Although, it's hard when he's only seen Hudson how many times? That's his choice. He doesn't want to spend time with his son, then fine. Just don't bitch to me when Hudson freaks out because he doesn't know you.



I can't wait for Christmas! I got Hudson a custom made toy box, with his name carved in it. It's gonna look so beautiful.




I stood up for you, cause I believed you were the one. You had all the chances in the world to let me know the truth, what the hell's wrong with you?

Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me, it's like you never knew me. Do you even know how much it hurt, that you gave up on me to be with her?

I'm so mad at you right now, I can't even find the words. I can't wait to see you burn. You tried to make me hate that girl, when I should be hating you. Nothing can save you now that it's over. I guess that you'll find out when you're no one. I just don't care, nothing can save you now.


Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

skelby @ 8:15pm: Hudson is 15 months already!
My world revolved around you, every word was a promise I was hanging on to. Swept up inside a whirlwind, I just couldn't see the end until you were gone. I thought I would fall apart, with shattered dreams and my broken heart.

What I was so afraid of turned out to be my freedom in disguise. Now I know what I'm made of, guess it just took some time to realize. I was blind, I couldn't tell. I had put too much faith in someone else, and gave up on my self.

How was I to know that I'd be okay? Thought I'd loose it all when you walked away. How was I to know that I'd be this strong? I had what it takes all along.